Life indeed gets better everyday. Even when I started feeling somewhat under the weather, I was still able to find some good things that makes me say I'm still lucky I am where I am right now.
I always look forward to Wednesdays even if it's my busiest and longest day of the week due to meetings and tutorials, because it's his day-off and we get to spend at least 3 hours together :) Today, right after he picked me up, we went straight to ATC to pay the remaining amount for our wedding bands. It was so beautiful with all its 5 diamonds, and I like it as it is, even if my brother says that it's not so thick, the diamonds are a wee bit small... who cares, right? It's beautiful and there's nothing else like it.
Next we met up with Ian, my favorite wedding photographer and he showed us his packages. He really is good and with all the praises I've given him, I think he really is going to give me a discount! :) This is something that he is allowing me to splurge on. I was only thinking of getting the first package, but when I saw a sample slideshow presentation, I finally decided to forego the videographer and instead get the second package altogether. He is THAT good that it's actually an extremely good deal.
We promised him we'll be back once we finalized the church and the wedding date and I'm starting to get excited now! I was even able to talk to my very good friend who's also planning her wedding next October. Now this is the motivation I need to love my work again.
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
Monday, July 19, 2010
Finding motivation
We're still in the middle of July and I'm starting to have a harder time waking up in the morning. I think I somehow got used to having no school for 4 days with just one day in between. There was also this resectioning in school that made it all the more difficult to contain the students, and I guess that's what pissing me off. On top of that, I was given a new one-on-one task three times a week DURING MY LUNCHBREAK. Not to mention that on July 31 and August 7, both Saturdays, that we'll be required to report for work for make-up classes and a general faculty meeting at 5pm. I won't be surprised if there are more.
I evaluate myself after every class. More often than not, I always say to myself, "I could have done better". Be it in terms of disciplining or discussing the lesson. I try to do better in the next class but I really get irked with all the noise and the commotion, especially today when most of them brought some living creatures to the classroom. Imagine, this girl emptied a jar, leaving her poor fish flailing for dear life. Or the canister with the snail that gets passed on to every corner of the room, more children standing up than sitting down, and no calm strategy could make them focus their attention back to the front. I really feel for the quiet students who try so hard to settle in their seats and focus, but the noise from the other children ARE JUST SO ANNOYING AND OVERWHELMING. I could have turned on a chainsaw and they wouldn't have noticed.
It's ironic that I even wrote about changing one's perspective in my previous post. How do you do that with everything else going against you? I felt a little better finishing off the last of the chocolate cake from the ref, but later on I'll be working on my lesson plans and I'll feel stressed out all over again. I guess I'll just pray hard enough tonight.
I evaluate myself after every class. More often than not, I always say to myself, "I could have done better". Be it in terms of disciplining or discussing the lesson. I try to do better in the next class but I really get irked with all the noise and the commotion, especially today when most of them brought some living creatures to the classroom. Imagine, this girl emptied a jar, leaving her poor fish flailing for dear life. Or the canister with the snail that gets passed on to every corner of the room, more children standing up than sitting down, and no calm strategy could make them focus their attention back to the front. I really feel for the quiet students who try so hard to settle in their seats and focus, but the noise from the other children ARE JUST SO ANNOYING AND OVERWHELMING. I could have turned on a chainsaw and they wouldn't have noticed.
It's ironic that I even wrote about changing one's perspective in my previous post. How do you do that with everything else going against you? I felt a little better finishing off the last of the chocolate cake from the ref, but later on I'll be working on my lesson plans and I'll feel stressed out all over again. I guess I'll just pray hard enough tonight.
Sunday, July 18, 2010
On getting hitched
I'm getting married sometime June 2011.
We wanted a weekend nearest to our 3rd anniversary, which is June 18. Should I consider it as a spur-of-the-moment thing? Hmmm. Maybe not. Although I'm getting stressed as if it is.
I knew we didn't have that kind of money for the usual grand wedding, but I guess it couldn't be helped to make it similar to the past weddings I've attended. That was why I cried while I was talking on the phone with him. It was indeed painful to think that it looks like I'm being short-changed with everything, but then again, we need to ask for more financial support when we finally take the first steps to migration to New Zealand. I need to make sure that we'll have the money to leave and fend for ourselves when we get there.
Now I'm trying to adapt to this realization. The number one goal is of course to be able to find a job and migrate. Of course that entails with a lot of preparations and spending, such as the IELTS exam, for one. This wedding will just be a stepping stone to the realization to that goal, as our parents pushes us to do "what is right" as if we'll never get to heaven if we don't. Well, that's another story. I of course want to have a nice wedding where all my friends are there, but he promises me there will be a second time around. And I resolve to work on that, too.
I learned that it all depends on the mind and your perspective. It will not help if I keep thinking I'm unlucky or getting the short end of the deal here, because I'm not. I have a wonderful fiance who loves me very much but he cannot afford to spend for a wedding now. It was pretty annoying talking to him this afternoon but I get it now. Now I don't feel so bad. I know I could work around with our small budget by stretching our imagination and creativity for the next few months.
We wanted a weekend nearest to our 3rd anniversary, which is June 18. Should I consider it as a spur-of-the-moment thing? Hmmm. Maybe not. Although I'm getting stressed as if it is.
I knew we didn't have that kind of money for the usual grand wedding, but I guess it couldn't be helped to make it similar to the past weddings I've attended. That was why I cried while I was talking on the phone with him. It was indeed painful to think that it looks like I'm being short-changed with everything, but then again, we need to ask for more financial support when we finally take the first steps to migration to New Zealand. I need to make sure that we'll have the money to leave and fend for ourselves when we get there.
Now I'm trying to adapt to this realization. The number one goal is of course to be able to find a job and migrate. Of course that entails with a lot of preparations and spending, such as the IELTS exam, for one. This wedding will just be a stepping stone to the realization to that goal, as our parents pushes us to do "what is right" as if we'll never get to heaven if we don't. Well, that's another story. I of course want to have a nice wedding where all my friends are there, but he promises me there will be a second time around. And I resolve to work on that, too.
I learned that it all depends on the mind and your perspective. It will not help if I keep thinking I'm unlucky or getting the short end of the deal here, because I'm not. I have a wonderful fiance who loves me very much but he cannot afford to spend for a wedding now. It was pretty annoying talking to him this afternoon but I get it now. Now I don't feel so bad. I know I could work around with our small budget by stretching our imagination and creativity for the next few months.
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