Getting back in shape

I think I did the right thing this morning. I had a cup of coffee and a bowl of oatmeal. I packed some soup for my lunch and vowed not to eat anything in between. Hmmm so far I've been "good" although I had to have some meat in my system so I grabbed a chicken nugget. The Blue Room celebrated Noah's birthday so I had a bit of lasagna with my soup and crackers. This afternoon I may have had consumed a total handful of unshelled macadamia nuts and I can't wait to find out what's for dinner. I am psyching myself to eat fruits tonight, if I can help it. I hope Ate Josie cooks an unappealing fish dish tonight.

I think it's all in the mind when you want to lose a few pounds. Well, in my case, a considerable number. I think I gained from bingeing since March :( and all the more I felt challenged to get back in shape when I saw an old picture from my Myspace album:



Waaaah!!!!! This was taken Nov 2005 after Mia's wedding in Cavite. Why oh why am I not able to go back to the good old days?! Huhuhu! But I remember at that moment I was still feeling fat and flabby. If my old self can see me now she'd be disgusted!

So after gorging on a cheeseburger, chicken nuggets with rice, large fries, large Sprite and a hot fudge sundae (Peejo kasi eh!) AT 4PM, I vowed to work on losing weight again, this time for good (crossing fingers). And then after a few hours my mom calls us for dinner and since she took some time to prepare something for us, we ate again! You're not helping, Mom!

I think baby steps are fine, as long as I'm aware of what I put in my mouth. I hope I'll get to lose weight in time for Christmas!

There's only one word for this

Your touch is electric, I felt it the first time you held me
The way we connected so easily

I've tried to define it, searched for the perfect phrase
I've tried to describe it in a million different ways

It's joy, it's ecstacy, it's truth, it's destiny
And even love is not enough to tell you how you make me feel
There's only one word for this, it's bliss

I've got to admit it, you took my heart by surprise
Don't know how you did it but baby, I've never felt so alive

Hey, you know, baby, know what the future holds
As long as you're here with me

It's faith, it's honesty, it's life, it's everything
To say "I love you" is not enough to tell you how you make me feel

Okay, okay I know it doesn't get any cheesier than this, but it really can't be helped hahaha! All you cynical souls out there, consider me your living proof!!! Indeed, ask and you shall receive, seek and you shall find, knock and it shall be opened unto you. I dunno why this time and why under these circumstances but I think it's best just to take it all in and bask in the blissfulness of it all!

I guess it all stems from the spiritual decision I recently made, and at the onset of this so-called new life, I've been the recepient of so many blessings - a new-found appreciation for the little things of everyday, longer patience in dealing with difficult people and circumstances, focus to accomplish my priorities, the most adorable children who make me laugh the hardest, friends who always express their utmost concern and love for me, an understanding family, and a significant other who has done so much more for me than anyone else combined (and continues to do so!).

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On a lighter note....I was in extreme menstrual pain last night and by 9pm I was asleep. I woke up at 5am and started working on my proposal again. I've been sleeping 12mn onwards everyday and I realized how much you can accomplish if you get 8 hours of sleep pala! Hahaha. My morning was even made brighter with Sausage McMuffin and hash browns (yum!)